I’m back. Living, and back. I thought by now I would have atleast tried to kill myself. To rid myself of the tortures of life and anxiety and depression. It’s haunts me everyday, and I don’t know how to fix myself, because I’m broken. I’m not happy, I don’t have dreams, I can’t live a normal life. I put on a fake smile at school, and pretend like I’m happy. I try to talk to new people, I try to get them to like me. But I will never be accepted. I’m weak, and broken.
I live in my room, and play the violin to keep myself busy. I do my homework, and make straight A’s. I take school seriously, and I try to look like a good student. I make my parents proud, or at least I think I do. I eat healthy food, and play sports. I look like a normal teenager, I act like one, but I’m broken, and they can’t fix me.
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You are not broken, and you do many wonderful things, you have intelligence to get just stray A at school and do well. You know how to play an instrument. Beside that you have a healthy life style. I do not see why you think others will never accept you or even less what you have to be fix.
I am pretty sure that many out there would like to have a friend like you. You have many things to be happy, happy with yourself first. You can do good things with all that you know and you are good at. You could teach others to play the violin for example. If you play sports, that is a good way to socialize. And having straight A, in a person that take school so seriously mean that you will have a pretty professional futuro.
Take Care and Cheer Up, say thanks for all those wonderful things you have.