OMG. How do you not just up and piss yourself every time this thing appears. You have to absolutely be the bravest person I have met.
Remind me though, anti psychotics caused you to almost die right? Gosh I hope they find some kind of new generation medicine that can give you some breathing room.
I don’t know how. I guess I’ve just been like this for so long. The first “moving pictures” I ever saw were of two moons, one which claimed to be God, and one which claimed to be the devil. Constantly arguing in my ears. They would also write notes to me, and I was able to tell which one was which by the handwriting. And the devil moon kept trying to trick me into believing that it was the God moon. If he succeeded in tricking me, I was convinced that “something really bad would happen.” So I was always pretty distressed at that time.
I was seven years old then. And it’s only gotten worse from there. I guess you could say that I’ve had a lot of practice at being functionally crazy.
About the meds: I’ve tried only 2 anti-psychotics. One didn’t do anything for or to me, good or bad. The other quite literally almost killed me. And left me with these annoying muscle tics. I hate them.
So, yeah. No luck so far on the med front.
Maybe you need to contact a good reputable psychic. You may be a psychic and don’t know it. This may be why the spirit world is bombarding you with all sorts of stuff.
Haha, that’s actually really funny, because when I was little, my mother was convinced that I was psychic, and that I inherited it from her. Not because of the pictures, though, but because of the dreams I used to have about the future. But I think that everyone dreams about the future at least once, because if you think about it, there are actually two dimensions of time, one forwards and one backwards. So, sometimes things “leak” and people remember the future. So I don’t think I was psychic. Just leaky.
I don’t believe in psychics, but I’ll consider your advice. I consider everyone’s advice because I’m desperate as all Hell.
I do think there is so much more to it than humans know about… I don’t know, one day doctors will look back at us and think how could we don’t know about it. But things like this, for now, seeing anything close to this, is something that needs to be affronted by really brave people. O.o
Well it’s because it reminds me of a big wild pig that appears in princess mononoke. A two faced version of that deamoned animal. But just for the fact that it is there in front of you too… with those eyes and those teeth… scary
The only time I took action which I thought could reasonably lead to my own death, and been completely fine with such an end, was when I was on a prescribed anti-psychotic. It left a mark on me, certainly, though from the sound of things I never had it nearly as difficult as you. I hope I didn’t aggravate you too much the other day. Maybe I’ll say if you make up your mind, err on the side of throat ripping.
I always feel hollow saying I hope people are doing ok, or at least better, but it’s true.
And maybe it’s the ears, but it I think it’s kind of cute.
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OMG. How do you not just up and piss yourself every time this thing appears. You have to absolutely be the bravest person I have met.
Remind me though, anti psychotics caused you to almost die right? Gosh I hope they find some kind of new generation medicine that can give you some breathing room.
Wow, thanks.
I don’t know how. I guess I’ve just been like this for so long. The first “moving pictures” I ever saw were of two moons, one which claimed to be God, and one which claimed to be the devil. Constantly arguing in my ears. They would also write notes to me, and I was able to tell which one was which by the handwriting. And the devil moon kept trying to trick me into believing that it was the God moon. If he succeeded in tricking me, I was convinced that “something really bad would happen.” So I was always pretty distressed at that time.
I was seven years old then. And it’s only gotten worse from there. I guess you could say that I’ve had a lot of practice at being functionally crazy.
About the meds: I’ve tried only 2 anti-psychotics. One didn’t do anything for or to me, good or bad. The other quite literally almost killed me. And left me with these annoying muscle tics. I hate them.
So, yeah. No luck so far on the med front.
Maybe you need to contact a good reputable psychic. You may be a psychic and don’t know it. This may be why the spirit world is bombarding you with all sorts of stuff.
Haha, that’s actually really funny, because when I was little, my mother was convinced that I was psychic, and that I inherited it from her. Not because of the pictures, though, but because of the dreams I used to have about the future. But I think that everyone dreams about the future at least once, because if you think about it, there are actually two dimensions of time, one forwards and one backwards. So, sometimes things “leak” and people remember the future. So I don’t think I was psychic. Just leaky.
I don’t believe in psychics, but I’ll consider your advice. I consider everyone’s advice because I’m desperate as all Hell.
Nice username, by the way. I do, too. 🙂
I do think there is so much more to it than humans know about… I don’t know, one day doctors will look back at us and think how could we don’t know about it. But things like this, for now, seeing anything close to this, is something that needs to be affronted by really brave people. O.o
Thanks, Moneypenny.
Man, he doesn’t even look that scary to me. The photoshopped pic I mean.
Well it’s because it reminds me of a big wild pig that appears in princess mononoke. A two faced version of that deamoned animal. But just for the fact that it is there in front of you too… with those eyes and those teeth… scary
The only time I took action which I thought could reasonably lead to my own death, and been completely fine with such an end, was when I was on a prescribed anti-psychotic. It left a mark on me, certainly, though from the sound of things I never had it nearly as difficult as you. I hope I didn’t aggravate you too much the other day. Maybe I’ll say if you make up your mind, err on the side of throat ripping.
I always feel hollow saying I hope people are doing ok, or at least better, but it’s true.
And maybe it’s the ears, but it I think it’s kind of cute.
You are right ears are cute, and also the sad expression on it’s main face
Looking at him in the light of day he really is kind 9f cute.
I might do a watercolor interpretation of this if you don’t mind.
That would be pretty interesting. I don’t mind at all.
Ty