Why is it that I always ruin everything? It’s like I can’t appreciate any good in my life. I’ve only ever had one boyfriend that I’ve truly felt love, and I managed to completely fuck that up. I always get this feeling when I’m with someone long enough that I’m ‘better’ than them, not that I even like myself anyway. It’s a curse and it ruins everything but there’s nothing I can do to stop it.
I’m a disgusting person who can’t make and keep friends and the one friend I have, must be a saint for being there for me (not that we regularly see each other anyway).
I’m ugly. My eyes are hooded and are so dark they look black. My nose is big and crooked. My jaw is so small that it gives me a double chin even though I’m skinny and my forehead is extremely big. My ribs are huge and my hips are tiny, making my proportions disgusting looking. I weigh 7 stone, which is little, yet I don’t look skinny at all, so loosing any weight would be bad for my health and would probably make me look disgusting anyway. My ***** is what I hate most. It’s not a neat little pornstar one, it’s disgusting. It has the horrible flaps that just make me even more ugly. How could anyone love me?
I despise myself and I think it’s time I fucking killed myself.
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you shouldn’t say that about yourself, besides falling in love with somebody is not only about the outside you know. Also even if you dont see your one friend very often, he still is your friend and I am sure you can talk to him about your problems. In case you need a talk feel free to add phil2921 on skype