“somewhere something horrible happens to someone on this earth and I am here.”
I started to think what makes me really sad, to know that people are forced to do things they don’t want, like children getting beat up because they blasphemed, men who are send to die against their will, women forced into submission by their own kin. And the list goes on and on, and I feel how this feels,I saw this things, and just thinking about this makes me so strange, kinda a mix between rage, fear, panic, a horrible feeling. And I don’t know how to cope with it, am I too emphatic, am I wrong to carry this burden at my early age ?
Could need someone to talk to
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Nope, I think you aren’t too sensitive. It is natural to feel the way you do. Especially if you are the type of individual that reads a lot of news. I avoid the news exactly for that reason. I would go bat shit crazy if I sat and thought about all the suffering that goes on in this world. Especially children.
There is this poster about drowning at the YMCA I go to and every time I read it I just feel ill. What if one of my kids were to drown, what if one of the kids I see at the pool all the time were to drown? What if just any old kid I never met were to drown. Then the thoughts begin looping in on themselves and I have to leave the pool and close my eyes and make believe I’m some place else until it passes.
Dear Lacalamity, I feel the same way. A lot of people say that suicidal tendencies stem from selfishness. But they don’t take in consideration about people like you or me. I mean, sure, when things get ugly for me, I get depressed. But when I see the cruelty in the world, the suffering in the world, the hypocrisy of Mankind, well, I get so ashamed to be human that I want to die! For example, for nearly 30 years I was an animal welfare advocate, I was an environmentalist, I tried to make a difference. But for every one good thing I did, there were a million people out there doing evil… maybe more than a million! The cruelty, suffering, and evil is overwhelming! I am exhausted. But yes, we may be kindred spirits for I too am emphatic and overly sensitive… too sensitive for this cruel world. Indeed, when I do check out, they should carve “To loving a soul, to cruel a world” on my headstone! That about sums up my whole existence.