🙁 Life sucks….
My life up to now has been nothing but crap….. Superficial, fake, and just tiring. I’ve grown tired of having to fake how i feel just to cope with family and friends and life in general when inside i feel the opposite of what i’m faking. I was told that if you worked hard you do anything. That nothing was impossible… To only find out that i was being lied to. Everyone else acts like life is great when it really isn’t… They blind themselves from the thought that there really is no point to it. Anyways i was wondering how could i go about breaking up with my gf without any suspicion? I’m going overdose myself on the same day… Probably with some pills. Out in the woods somewhere… Where no one will find me. My parents are both drug addicts and literally don’t give a fuck about me… My siblings just use me for my kindness…. I recently got out of a car accident and to top it off i injured my leg to an extent that it will never be the same ever again. I love to do parkour… My dream was to be a professional stuntman but i know it’s never going to come true. I can barely walk at all. I just want to disappear.. If I continue to live even one more day i’ll go insane. Did i meantion the pain from that leg is unbearable and i can’t afford to go to the hospital…. There is no future for me… I’m just another broken… Useless piece of garbage god can just toss away. I am nothing and i accept that. How i managed to even get a gf is beyond belief. If god won’t end my suffering then i will.
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I can relate to a lot of what you say. I have also have to put on this fake face and try to make people in my life think that I am OK, but really inside I don’t want to be alive anymore. I DO try to make the best of things but I have so many issues. I have a painful disability, I have metal and emotional issues stemming from all the abuse I went through in childhood and I have other issues too. So you are not alone in having these kinds of issues to deal with. But I do believe that things can get better for you. I know it might not seem like it but things can and will get better. I hope you don’t end your life. I believe you can pull out of this and I believe some really good things can come your way. From what you say here… I feel that you are really hard on yourself. I hope you can try to gt away from that. You have a lot more going for you then you give yourself credit for. Try to get a more positive view of yourself. Things will get better.
Try taking little steps in fixing some of the issues in your life. I wish you well.
I’m tired of wearing that fake mask have been for years acting like everything is ok on the outside when your falling apart on the inside one thing I’m unsertain of is trying to call it a day again and things getting better
What if things never get better? What will you do then? Why put yourself back in pain and suffering when you can end it all in a instant?
I’m not actually sure I guess fearing the Unknown I did try twice early this year but was a lousy attempt cause I’m still here
Why do humans cling to life even though it is pointless and only is about suffering?
We only stay bc many of us find it too hard to off ourselves. And many have tried and failed.
bc suicide isn’t an easy thing to do. if it were, then you and everyone else would’ve done it already. and there’d be no need for sites like SP.
I’m going to commit suicide tomorrow. I gave myself time. That time limit is almost over.. Near the end.
48 hours to find a reason why i should not. Didn’t find any.
I know I’m late. I just wanted to say that I understand having drug addict parents. My own childhood was tumultuous and terrifying because of that. Some of the memories I forced myself to bury a long time ago, they were just too much. I’ve managed to forgive my parents, but I’m not gonna lie and say it was easy, because it was anything but. I was bitter and unforgiving for years. Especially after my stepdad, whom my mother had introduced to heroin, OD’ed and died two years ago. I wanted my anger and hurt to fester and I wanted to carry it to my grave.
But instead, I forgave them. And now I’m traveling that long, winding road of healing. So if you ever need to talk to me about that pain, I can try my best to help. I hope that’s not a condescending invitation. I really just hope I can help, even a little.
I wouldn’t bother breaking up with her; either way she will be hurting, that’s inevitable … so if you are going to die then I would go ahead. I’m sorry your life is like this. You’ll die knowing the truth about society though. I have to be fake to everyone except on SP, i pretend I’m happy when I’m not. I pretend to be ‘normal’ (societies definition). And people suck
You don’t sound useless, or like a piece of garbage. I know that the act can take an incredible amount of energy, though; to the extent that you’re left with little for anything else. If there is anywhere you don’t have to wear the mask, try to spend whatever time you can there, be it a physical or mental space. No one should have to fake themselves.
Been stressing to the point i’m breaking out and my whole body is aching. Tried everything but i just can’t stop. I’m filled with pain,anger, and confused. Can’t even get sleep. I don’t know how much longer i can keep this up…….
I have all the preparations close to me. It’s only a matter of time…..
As much as I would like to kill off every single person who has ever given me pain i rather choose to disappear. To make them feel pain, anguish, and sorrow. I want them to feel my pain and to pay for it. I truly hate them, i truly hate everything and everyone including my self.