Got back home. I didn’t want to cause my family stress/fear… Got semi-forced to continue attending my studies…
No escape… No fuckin’ escape…
Slowly losing the remaining bit of my sanity…
My head hurts…
Almost OD’ed three days ago… It was an accident, me and a couple of friends were celebrating my birthday and we had some chemical fun. I spent about 3 hours shaking and struggling to stay conscious… But I ended up going home safe and downing a couple more beers, finally going to sleep after that.
The way I feel right now is somewhere between really hot and really cold, temperature-speaking… My head feels as if I’m getting publicly executed with stones… My eyes water up when I close them, and it feels like they’ve just been on flames…
It’s not the flu or anything… No idea what I have right now…
Noticed my arms are hurting when I try to lift them completely up, which is weird as I never had anything like this before…
Strangely, I’m not afraid… Just annoyed by all of this. I mean, why the fuck do I suffer from physical sickness only on weekends? Why do I never get a couple of sick days off during the week?
Anyway, that’s about it for now.
Going for a cig. I hope I don’t fall down on my way to the balcony.
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It is so good to see you Alex
@Alexther: I was thinking about you this afternoon. I am sending kind thoughts your way.