Why is it that we hesitate about taking that final step?
I myself have the perfect, easy, pain free solution available right now,
but I cannot discuss what that is due to this forums rules.
Anyway my point is I still hesitate to take that final step and I’m not sure why.
I got really close once and had this feeling of peace and happiness until someone else stopped me so I know I’m not scared.
Am I waiting & wishing that life will improve?
No I’m not because I can’t think of anything that would make me happier than to not have to do this thing called life anymore.
Please share your thoughts as to why you – yourself hesitate or decide not to go through with it.
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Even though one doesn’t want to live but still protecting one’s life is the basic instinct of one’s subconscious mind.
For me : I can’t put her in misery so that I myself don’t have to suffer anymore.
Anyways, I know my life will be much better and happier when I will get married to my one true love. 🙂
My family. They just lost one child, I can’t do this to them now. Also, the people who killed my brother still have to pay. I still have to make my family’s lives a little easier before I go.
I also have a somewhat sure way to go, but I never do anything because of the reasons already stated. It sucks being stuck like this. I’m not alive for me. I’m alive for the people around me, to make them happy and not hurt them.
Once I know they are well taken care of, I am so out of here, and I won’t even think twice about it.
You are doing the right thing. Your have a strong love for your family.
If you have people that still need you in your life, then you should stay.
Especially if you have children. I myself never had children.
Most of my family has passed on. I don’t have any close friends.
But I do have a very sweet little dog but she is very close to her time to leave.
I lost her mother last year. She was 16. I lived for her, she was like my first born child if I had one. So there is no reason for me to stay.
I only hesitate because I’m not sure whether my method is perfect or not.
Or it’s not easy. Or it’s not painful. There are 3 required attributed, but it seems to me that only 2 are avalaible.
I would do it without hesitation.
because i;m a *****, i always been since i was born, hiding at the back and not even brave enough to say a word and look you in the eye.
I’m scared of failing. My only accessible method will take 24 hours to work. I researched it a lot and collected all the necessary ingredients but I’m scared I will be found before it’s over and live with organ damage. Also afraid of the suffering before I go. If I had a gun I would’ve done it long ago but it’s impossible to get a gun in NY unless you know people to get it illegally which I don’t.
Don’t want to fail. Failing is worse than not dying I think. Who wants locked-in syndrome? Who wants severe brain damage? Who wants people bathing them, wiping their butt and feeding them and doing everything for them, while said person cannot do anything except their eyes around? Who wants a face blown off? Who wants to be paralyzed?
Except *move their eyes around
I hesitate because I know Hell exists. And because my family would be utterly destroyed if I just left them like that. Those are my only reasons.
I am not scared of failing whatsoever. I don’t think I will fail, if I were to try. There are just some things that are impossible to survive. It’s so easy to murder someone, so easy. So it shouldn’t be hard for me to murder myself. If you use a violent enough method, you won’t fail. And I don’t shy away from violent methods. In fact, I prefer them. So I know I wouldn’t fail.
I don’t own a gun.
Suicidal Angel.
Interesting post!
Ha Ha! like you I have anything ready 10 ft away from me, I know it will work i researched it to death!
let’s face it once you make that decision if you are like me there is no turning back! you will die!
I don’t like my friends to hear me talk like this, but your question is irresistible! this is my perspective. And my perspective goes all over the place, first there is no reason to fear what’s going to happen anyway, it’s going to happen like it or not. it happens to everyone sooner or later, so what is the difference today tomorrow next year? The results are all the same. In the end it doesn’t make a difference, you will be dead. being dead is just that being dead, you will not know anything not how long you did live or anything about what you did, the fate is the same for a child or a 90 year old man, the results are the same, and it’s going to happen to everyone sooner or later.
now what about the people around you? some will cry some will be heartbroken and some won’t care, but you see once they die the same thing happens to them they will not know anything. after they die you won’t even be a memory and you will be forgotten and so will they.
best case scenario your famous Elvis Presley! generations remember you! but what does that matter you once your dead? your dead it doesn’t matter. and if you did become a house hold name that lasted for centuries it would not matter to you because your dead. nothing matters to the dead. it’s only while your living that anything matters. it’s only while your living that you can see and feel how your death or anyone’s else death effects others. I guess the bottom line is nothing matters when your dead.
now I disregard all theories about religion life after death and reincarnation, lets put it this way, I believe when you die that’s it lights out. ashes to ashes dust to dust. so knowing all this what does that leave me? “Am I waiting & wishing that life will improve?” of course! because I also know this is a one way ticket, while being alive. although realizing in the end life doesn’t matter, it does well I’m alive. As I write this it matters because I have a brain and thoughts and feelings, I know once I’m dead I’ll never have them again. hum? something to think about correct? yeah but then again only well I’m alive. this response will mean nothing to me when I’m dead. I told you my perspective would go all over the place!
again to answer your question why? what keeps us going? BEING ALIVE!! HA HA HA!!! THAT’S WHAT KEEPS US GOING!!!! HOW IRONIC!!!!
Yeeees 🙂
Ah you made me laugh rocketman.
And so true. Nothing matters. Nothing at all.
Unplug the life support system and its over.
How true that that is the only thing that keeps us here.
And yes it doesn’t matter what age it happens, its still going to happen.
I think we are all just really bad procrastinators.
Like you said, can’t avoid it, its going to happen anyway, so why procrastinate?
Do you think its our conscience that doesn’t allow it because society drums it in to us that to take your own life is wrong and a sign of being crazy or mental?
Yet if we die by accident or illness its accepted fully.
Are we all just hoping for that instead to make it acceptable to others?
I guess a lot of you out there are hoping and wishing for life to improve but honestly I’m not, because then I would feel obligated to live and that’s the whole thing I don’t want to do.
I don’t agree with life, I think its a waste of time because like you said everything and anything ceases to exist when you die so why bother living in the first place.
Lol rocketman … being alive keeps us alive… 100% true.
Life you cunning fucker
Suicidal Angel,
Thanks it is funny, this situation we are all caught up in!! ha ha! you know the answer to “why bother living in the first place” but what the hell i got a few minutes to hear myself talk 🙂 why? because we were born, then comes the survival in stink did i say that right? 🙂 ha ha!
“Anyway my point is I still hesitate to take that final step and I’m not sure why.” Because you feel that you are unfinished? There is something deep down that is still keeping you here?
Hey rocketman, here’s one for you…..
why were we born in the first place?
If we were not born we would not be facing this dilemma ha ha
If it weren’t for my family I probably would have jumped a long time ago. I just hate the idea of them having to deal with the aftermath. I also fear surviving and ending up worse than before.