So…in a couple of hours I’m going to be seeing my GP for the first time in a verrrry long time. I’m on medication for high blood pressure because I’m overweight. Problem is I’m a lot heavier than the last time I saw him, so my BP is probably through the roof. He’ll be wanting to know why that is. How can I explain to him why I stuff myself with food when I still trying to figure it out myself! The real problem is that hubby insists on sitting in on these 10 minute slots with the doctor. Maybe I should say I want to go in by myself, but then I get accused of being secretive and he gets pissed off. Perhaps I should make a stand and go in by myself. I like my GP. When I’ve previously spoken to him about my depression, he referred my for counselling before handing me some pills. His attitude seems a lot different to most medical people who just seem to want to medicate people so they’re zombies. I think I could tell him about the failed suicide attempt last November and the fact I want to do it again (and know how to get it right this time). Part of me is really curious to see how he’d react. I don’t know though. I’m on auto-pilot these days when people ask how I am. I’m not sure I could be totally upfront with anyone anymore. Just too much effort to tell in order to be just brushed aside with a banal comment.
At least here I can say what I like and people understand. Hugs to all of you special people!
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Sorry to hear that ur doctor sounds under standing so mayb u should tell him how your feeling he might help
I’ll see how things go. Appointments are only 10 minutes, and i guess you can’t get much said in that little block of time. Whereas of course, I have way too much time!
Well I have to say that if you only have 10 min with the doctor and you want to be able to talk to him with out your hubby being there… then I suggest you tell your hubby that you need to talk to the doctor “by yourself” and if your hubby gets upset then its too bad for him. You have the right to talk to your doctor in private. Everybody does.
Well if you have gained weight then you have gained weight there is no way to hide that. I think you should be honest with your doctor about that > that food is kind of an outlet for you as you are battling depression maybe he can prescribe something for you that will lower your craving for food.. or perhaps he might have some other solution for you.
I think its good to be as honest with the doctor as possible as they can only help you when you are being honest with them.
Good luck.