I really haven’t got the strength to carry on my life has fell apart I’m depressed and so anxious I don’t really leave the house and to make things even worst I’m puting on weight because I’m comfort eating I really don’t know what to do I should have just killed myself last year iv just pro longed my pain and suffering
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I agree. Maybe we’re all prolonging the pain, becoming and more and more masochistic. I can’t even imagine myself surviving depression and this suicidal state. I just wish I could get enough courage and do it.
On another note, the least we can do for others is try to fix ourselves. But then again, that would take a toll on ourselves.
Sadly even if we make the effort to keep on living, things don’t change on their own even if we decided to carry on. I remember that back in the day (when i was obese and more of a recluse than i am now), i used to wonder why life was so bad and how to get rid of my depression. My parents used to say stuff like “you have to cause changes” “nobody is going to knock on the door to give you a solution” “you’re alone because you’re causing it”. Some decades later i have to say that… yup, they were sort of right. Not that knowing that makes it easier to find a solution, but sadly it’s sort of true.
@drowning: you’ve had a really tough time in the last few weeks. I think Mf makes some salient points regarding walking forward. Walking forward is never easy. But there are people holding your hands, and you might not even notice them. Sometimes I think I’m walking by myself, but I rarely am.
I feel for you Drowning. Because I have been following your posts over the last few weeks and see that are having a hard time. I know the place where you are in. I used to be in such a terrible place all I wanted to do was end it. I spent much of my time researching methods and trying to acquire what I would need to do it. I did in fact have an attempt that landed me in the hospital and the whole 9 yards. Since then I have figured out ways to improve my position in life and now things are getting better for me. So I just wanted to share and say that things can get better. I hope things get better for you. I wish you well my friend.
Thanks guys for the replays I appreciate it I’m trying to hold on hopefully things get better
Just keep fighting D. It’s hard, I know. I’m in a crisis of my own tonight as always, but I try to look past it and just keep moving forward. Actually, I’ve learned to take things slowly. One foot in front of the other. Baby steps. Take it one minute at a time. Try to do that for now. Be patient with yourself, and be gentle with yourself. The pain won’t just go away overnight. In fact, you may still have many more days like these. Maybe at a certain point things do get better. They haven’t for me, but I’m not about to throw in the towel just yet, no matter how much I desire just ending it. Don’t give up. You are far stronger than you think.
Thanks Ylem I won’t give up just yet
That’s the spirit my friend. Don’t let this thing beat you. I’m sure you can win.
Btw, day 12 of not cutting. I should stop counting, but I have the urge, so keeping the numbers in my head helps me fight it.
12 days that’s really good hi5 🙂 stay strong