Hello

Hi everyone,
I’ve been on this site before back in december 2012 when things were at their worst. My name was Gumpy btw. I’m nearly 18 now and things are… a tonne… ‘better’ you could say. I’ve been on medication which has helped. I feel so bad about things getting better though, so i’m not happy about the progress. Now i’m just stuck and confused on what I should do. My main problem is my looks, they are horrific… like half shrek half hunchback of notre dam. I don’t want to live looking like this, I won’t allow it. So my only choices are suicide and surgery.. and the negative about surgery is that I will look fake and I won’t feel naturally pretty. Idk, it might sound ridiculous to a lot but when i mean ugly, I mean ugly. I’m never unhappy these days. i mean obviously I hate everyday not having friends and having to deal with an ugly face, but it’s manageable. I just look at my future a lot… and there’s not much there. So I consider the possibilities and everything- my life will forever be bland :/