I knew the good mood wouldn’t last like I said yesterday it wouldn’t last and it didn’t I’m back normal as I call it depressed as hell wishing Monday actually went as planned and well it’s the first day of summer with no plans not looking forward to it at all being suicidal is hard work not knowing when your last day will be u can act on impulse and not plan at any given moment and end up in hospital again I hope next time it’s in a body bag because life is hard and it’s not getting easier sigh
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Hey Drowning. I’m home alone (as usual) dreaming about ending up in a body bag too. If only it was easier to die. I feel your pain. Hope you find some peace today.
Thanks ny yeah dying isn’t that easy it takes determination and courage but in time that will grow I guess how’s things ur end
A great quote:
“People often say suicide is a cowards act, couldnt be farther from the truth. It takes a great deal of courage. A true suicide is a paced and disciplined act”
Yh I agree my friend
One of my favorites and so true
The good mood just never lasts. Enjoy it while it lasts D. I’m sort of feeling okay because of a certain somebody here on SP.
Sportsnut, you are not giving me a chance to be depressed, let alone think about killing myself. First weekend in a long time I’ve spent with nothing but a smile on my face. Thank u.
My mood died from yesterday at least something got done yesterday that I enjoyed so that was ok
I love what you did for me yesterday D. Like I said. I will treasure it always. A great symbol of our friendship and all that we have in common.
Whenever you feel down, just think of yesterday.
@ylem…that makes everything worth it to me…and I too have on nothing but a smile as well..hehe.. I feel pretty oh so pretty..
@D I love you, brother..
Well I tried to quit drinking bc I was drinking vodka everyday like it was water. I decided to compromise and only drink beer. Now I am bloated as hell but slightly buzzed so I guess things could be worse, lol. Just trying to make it through the day. How you feeling?
Same trying to make it though I had to stop drinking I made it a habit was drinking for a short period everyday so had to stop but I’m more of a rum kinda guy lol beer dose bloat u tho
Ive got a bunch of diff alcho bottles from english vodka, austrian rum, scotches and whiskeys a tequila a wild turkey a melon and a raspberry vodka and a couple others all with a little left and im gonna mix them all, put it in my flask and when im ready to end it thats when ill drink it up cause there from all through my life so far so yeah thats my alcho life
End it I say we head over to mr angry house and party.
P A R T add a Y on that and you got yourself a partay!
and then add suicide to the front , what do you have… I’m first..pick me
Ill bring a cheese platter lol
lol please I love cheese..
Hey we could have a pinyata with deadly devices in it like knives and guns that would be cool!
Now that’s a party I’d like to be a part of. A suicide part-a-y.
@Ylem..I want to enter the void with you..
@Nutty…. Took you long enough. I thought you’d never ask.
@ylem…Romeo and Juliet, didn’t get to leave together…we would best them.. to die with a smile is nobler than to live with a frown …
@Nutty…. With you by my side, why would I ever frown? You are my sunshine on a cloudy day.
@ylem..when it’s cold outside, I’ve got the month of May.. weeeellll I guess you say.. what can make me feel this way.. my girl..my girl .. my girl… talking bout my girl… my girl..
@Nutty…. You are such a temptation…. I’ve got so much honey the bees envy me… I’ve got you my honey.
@ylem… speaking of temptation…and honey … wanna pollinate…
Lmaoo sure ill pick one up
Nah we have to make our own with all our custom killing items inside, we could drink and party the wack it open and just stab and murder each other, oh man what a party for the ages it would be…
lol..kupo was referring to the cheese tray.
Yeah but still we need to make our own pinyata
I’m all up for that party. Who wants me to skin them alive? Or you can skin me or kill me in the slowest most painful way you can think of. I would love every minute of it. That’s Ylem the Masochist speaking, not me.
Yeah that might be abit much for me to take but how about death by a 1000 no wait 10,000 cuts?
Cuts? I fucking love cuts! How deep would you go? I’ve done a little over 300 in one day. (And yes, I was counting them.)
Well how deep could one go before it would cause a quick death due to thd blood loss, i think to have many many more cuts you have to not go very deep and maybe using a blood thickener would really help too
You have my attention Mr Angry. I see you’re thinking about it. Avoid veins and arteries. We could go quite a few hours, days even… I’ll die a very happy Ylem.
Yes we’d have to be smart about it; use one med to slow the heart down, use another to thicken the blood (probs a lot), cut the limbs first avoiding arteries as you said, after the first few hours moving onto the body and maybe having a blood injection stream to ridiculously extend it even more, definitely a full 36 hours minimum. Oh and with small special blades we would cut the arms then place and leave the blade in to mostly prevent the bleeding while continuing on with the body….
Wow…
Mr Angry…. You are moving to the top of the list of my besties. You are speaking my language. First one to actually entertain the idea. Thanks a million times over. Just thinking about it puts a smile on my face. Oh, the picture you’ve painted in my head with that description….. Wow indeed!! 🙂
Yeah maybe way too specific… ^ but oh well dats how I razor roll
You are very welcome, its makes me happy to hear theres a smile there, also i can think of the most fucked up shit ever sometimes like for real sometimes it gets too much even for myself
Don’t sweat it. Me too. Why do you think I left it all up to you to decide how you’d cut me? I’ve thought of it so many times, in so many different ways. I needed a second opinion 🙂
@Nutty…. OMG Nut, what are you doing to me? YEEESSSSS!!!! Let’s spread little Ylems and Nuts all around this world. Hope they don’t end up where we are.
@ylem…I bet we could go hours, even days too..wink wink..you know my best outfit.you never told me yours..
@Nutty… How about you pick my outfit? I’m leaving it all up to you.
@ylem31.. what time are you logging off?
@Nutty… I’ll probably fall asleep while logged on. It’s almost 11pm my side. A little after midnight maybe. Midnight my time.
@ylem…if this is our last night together..it was a magical moment in time..I can’t even imagine the spark irl… how about 90s grunge hair…sandles..comfy sweats and your favorite t-shirt..