I hope this isn’t breaking the rules… I’m a 48 year old man. Been kind of a rough and tough guy all my life. Never done drugs, though. Drank alot, smoked a little weed years and years ago… those were the days…. anyway, my whole world has come tumbling down. I know, you’ve never heard that before, but it has! I was married for 15 years and hated most every minute of it. Finally grew the balls to get out in 2010. Soon after I met the most beautiful angel! And, of course, immediately fell in love! It was wonderful! We were together for a year and a half before she suddenly flipped out and left me. She said I loved her too much and she didn’t deserve to be treated that well. She moved in with a junky who I guess treats her like garbage since that’s what she wants… I was devastated! It’s been almost 5 years now and I still think about her every day and how we enjoyed just being with each other! I can’t stand it! I’m now living with a woman who is obsessed with me! She loves me too much (ironic, huh?)! I’ve tried to jump into the game of playing house and pretending we will be happy ever after, but it’s not working! I had $250,000 saved up to start this new life and now it’s almost gone and I’m no better off than I was when I was married to the devil in 2009! I’ve stolen a few pills from my current girlfriend and I’m planning on doing the deed soon, like in about a week. I’m worried about vomiting. If I vomit, it is all for naught! I’m hoping some phenergen will help to keep it down and also plenty of Ativan to put me in a near comatose state until the 300mg of oxycodone does its job. I’m about to lose everything! I hate the woman I’m with, I can’t stand her kids, and most of all, I hate myself! I had the chance to make it good, but I blew it! I’m done! 48 is enough
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Love is one of the toughest and most confusing things in life but it not worth just throwing life away. We all have to fight our battles and if we give up, we arnt just letting ourselves down but everyone else around us as well. INCLUDING myself and everyone who reads this post and wants to help you. If you need to talk then lets talk but dont just give up now, you have come too far to give up now!
It’s fascinated me lately to find out how many married people are unhappy because they wish they were single, and how many single people are unhappy because they need to have a significant-other.
I’ve been in the single-but-miserable group for most of my life, (never married), and have often been sad because I have all this unclaimed love that can only be channeled into a non-platonic relationship.
So it often feels foreign to me that someone who actually FOUND someone could possibly be unhappy.
And yet, I understand that it’s totally possible to be miserably married.
In the time I’ve spent on this site, I’ve seen quite a lot of people who are married but terribly unhappy.
There are also single people who are terribly unhappy about being single.
It’s strange, isn’t it…. we each want what the other has, even though we’re both miserable.
They say it’s like flies on a screen door: Those who are in want out and those who are on the outside want in.
Yes. 🙂
Good illustration.
We can’t discuss m@thods but I will say that you need to research thoroughly how you plan on doing this. A few pills and some Phenergan will only land you in the hospital at best.
Well, I need to find somewhere to talk about this freely, then. The last thing I want is to end up alive in a hospital and have to spend the next several years wearing a diaper and a bib…
But we’re willing to help you find a solution to your troubles. You came here for a reason, perhaps you are still searching for hope and a reason to go on. Stick around and chat for a while; we will help you to find a solution and to see if we have really exhausted all possible avenues (something that you may have not been able to see on your own).
But we’re willing to help you find a solution to your troubles. You came here for a reason, perhaps you are still searching for hope and a reason to go on. Stick around and chat for a while; we will help you to find a solution and to see if we have really exhausted all possible avenues (something that you may have not been able to see on your own).
*to see if you have really exhausted…
48 is still plenty young.