I feel like I’ve exhausted the people I can talk to. I’m just boring people with my suicidal state now and I’m scared of driving people away.
I talk to friends. I rant on social media. I feel like I’m just wasting time talking to volunteers of hotlines. I post here. None of it makes me feel better or is cathartic in any way. It’s just something to do because my brain won’t let me do anything else.
Fuck me.
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I’m here
I’ve been trying to finish this rewrite of a script for weeks now, but I can’t because everytime I try, I just get overwhelmed with suicidal thoughts and it snuffs out all creativity. I can’t get any work done and I feel like I’m dying… or more importantly that I want to die. Either way, I’m fucking useless.
Well you found the right place to share. No one ever gets tired of talking about ending their lives here…or hinting about m@thods….discussing hospital stays. Everyone is really understanding and helpful. Plus sometimes it is really fun to be here.
Yes I just said a suicide support group is fun. wow. (checks for falling meteor on house)