Where do I begin?

Thank You

* I dropped almost 2 years ago *

I was a good student, but had painful socail anxity. It wasn’t that I was uncapeble of makeing friend’s, I actually had a lot of friends, some good, some bad, some that I still talk to.

* I have some childhood trauma
that I keep replaying in my head *

I used to live in Long Island, NY. Long Island is a place that seen better days. Basically its isolated economy was discontinued much like Detroit’s was. The area I grew up in was particularly bad, It wasn’t uncommon to see people dealing drugs and selling themselves to the night when “getting the bread and milk”
(a slang term for buying groceries that was conceived from a YouTube video that went viral during hurricane Sandy which Martial law had to be implemented in my town for 2 weeks it kinda makes me think of the movie “the purge”).

* In my former school district *

When I was 5 or something years old
I was placed in life skills classes because I failed a IQ test and was terribly shy which made the special ed department think I was retarded and life skills is where retarded people go (in reality I failed the IQ test because I couldn’t focus and was terribly shy because of the verbal abuse I received at home). My Mom (who is a teacher certified in assisting children with special needs) took me out of pubic school and enrolled me in a Christian homeschool program called A Beka where I leared to read and sparked a desire to be normal which was hotter then a thousands Suns (within this 3 year period I also developed depression, anxiety and self destructive tendencies) many In which I still struggle with to this day.

I think thats enough for one reply

PS music is the love of my life

Hear’s the link to the bread and milk video

https://youtu.be/i6zaVYWLTkU