The friend I got to know with a mutual fetish and I ended up really liking beyond. I don’t know what kind of relationship it was. More then a platonic friendship, yet no serious commintment.
I guess it is my fault that I love him. Him for showing me something caring, sensual and loving without wanting to get into my pants.
He broke it to me a week ago. When we saw us first and had a lovely day together and wanting to repeat it some time later he actually saw another one. A real, biological woman and not just some wannabe.
He said he was sorry that he lied to me for 2.5 years of pushing me away on purpose to not see him yet still flirted with me in skype Chats and Messages.
I don’t blame him for wanting a real woman, and something much closer to him. We live about 200km apart from eachother but we could’ve met. And we did. We met a few months ago. We had a good time talking but he pushed me away physically… he said it was just the long tip by car and one traffic jam after another.
As much as I understand him I can’t help to feel I was just an adventure… something odd and curious that you end up not liking and keep out of your life.
I don’t know how to feel, it hurt. But it seems it just added to the chilling emtpiness inside.
I forgave him but don’t know if I want to get a get too close again.
Admittingly… I guess I’ll be never be more then an adventure and love, as it is protrait, will never really be something to expierence.
Thanks for reading
That truly sounds painful lotus. Its really hard when that kind of thing doesn’t work out. Especially when it sounds like u invested a fair amount of time into it. Bottom line, I will say it’s his loss. But if ur like me u wont believe me, but its true. If u were offering a strong friendship and an interest in the same fetish he must be crazy.
Dont give up. U can find the person to fill the emptiness inside.
Not crazy, just “too far away”