Looking for someone

Hi. I haven’t used this site in a very long time. Long enough to forget my password and to have to create a new account. I came here cause I felt alone. Wanted to die. Shocker I know. But I came across this post. A party post. I can’t  recall the user who held it. But it made me feel apart of something. Feel included. More than I had in a long time before. I feel awful for not remembering the user. That user and others impacted me greatly that night. I’ve looked thru the site for that post again but couldn’t find it. Deleted i’m assuming. I feel awful for not remembering the name considering the impact they had on me. I’m not free of suicidal thoughts but that night lent a hand in keeping me fro doing so. I guess i’m just hoping that someone knows the post and remembers the user and if they’re still ok. Thanks for any help.