I am depressed and I’ve been depressed for many years now. I have told my mom what I was going through and she ignored me. I’ve told her two times what I was going through and I got nothing. But just recently, she listened but I’ve decided now its too late. I’m going to do it. I’m going to kill myself. Some time in the future but it will come.
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I’m very sorry to hear this Audrey. What made you decide that it’s too late?
I’m tired of feeling like I’m not loved and like I’m not worth while. I’m tired of feeling just a little fat or not pretty enough. I feel like my mom put me off until SHE was ready while I was the one hurting.
Hi, Audrey. Since your mom is now listening, maybe it’s not too late? If you’d like to talk a little bit about what’s happening, you’ll find a lot of support here. Welcome to SP.
Talking would be cool. Thank.
You’re never alone sweetheart. I promise. Thank you for reaching out. Very courageous of you. A lot of people don’t. Sometimes friends and family don’t quite grasp the situation. Unless they’ve been there they’ll never fully understand. I’m very sorry you’re going through a hard time. People here will listen and can understand/relate to the feelings you are feeling right now. Would you like to talk to us about it ? I’ve find talking to those who really understand helps. Your worth listening to. We’re here for you. Hugs
Thanx. I guess I’d be willing to talk about it.
What’s troubling you sweetie? Keep in mind that whatever your comfortable saying is perfectly fine Audrey. You won’t be judged here. By the way you have a beautiful name. 🙂
Thank you for the compliment. I just have a lot of problems with my parents. I have a lot of painful secrets that I’m trying desperately to take to the grave even though they are literally killing me. Just a lot of deep rooted problems. Pain growing over time.
You are absolutely welcome. 🙂
Thank you for opening up. It’s very hard to do sometimes. I’ve been there I promise. I’m 27. Been through a lot of hard things. I kept a secret for 15 years and the biggest relief came when I opened up to someone about it. I understand the emotional torment that secrets can cause. It eats you up inside. For me I was molested as a child, then later raped as an adult. I wish that was the worst of it but sadly it’s not. I understand the depression, anxiety, torment, hopelessness and feeling so alone. Its hard. A secret is never worth your life though sweetheart. Be who you are. You have a purpose. If society judges you…..SCREW SOCIETY! You deserve happiness. You deserve to be loved for who you are. That heartbeat in your chest is proof that you have purpose. It’s a beautiful melody that’s hurting. I may not know you but my heart goes out to you. Just saying what you’ve said shows how tremendously brave you are. 🙂
Thank you for you very kind words. I really wish people in my life were like you. Maybe one day ill be brave like you. I want to be brave enough to open up about what happened to me when I was younger but until then, I’m going to keep my secret.
That’s perfectly fine. Your very welcome Audrey. You’re very sweet. Id give you a huge hug if I could. Thank you for feeling comfortable enough to open up to me and thank you also for reaching out. You’re braver than you know sweetheart. I mean every word. People sometimes have a hard time understanding things. I’ve been through many bad things. I can relate to different difficult situations more than most people. Life is difficult sometimes. It can be harsh, unfair and people can be cruel. But life can also be beautiful. You are a beautiful soul Audrey. You’re never alone. I hope peace and comfort find your heart so that healing can come in. No matter what’s happen sweetheart…you deserve love and happiness. Find your place in life. Be who you are. The world can be ugly…but there is beauty in it. If you can’t see it around you…just Iook in the mirror. 🙂
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