I just want to go to sleep and not wakeup. I’m still lonely. It’s not all gloom and doom. I’m just tired. My favorite artist of all time is dead instead of me. I’d gladly give my life for Prince to be alive I’ve been listening to his music my entire life. Somebody I used to love is still incredibly beautiful and i just think of how inadequate i am looking at her picture. I don’t think my death would be a big deal. I wish I’d just do it…at least for the moment.
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Prince, gone, at 57. Hope your day is well.
Yeah its such a sad time. He was/is a musical genius. I understand when u say ur tired. I feel that alot of days too, it alwaus seems to pass for me. Music really helps. I find the more emotional the better. Happy music makes me want to kill other people! I hope it passes for u deadmanliving. Take care.
Hi Deamanliving. Prince was a terrible loss to this world. I understand how much losing artists hits home. Some of the musical artists I listen to have saved my sanity and/or my life over the years. I would be an empty husk without them.
The woman you used to love is still beautiful? How wonderful is that. To have beauty still in your life but I do understand the heartache of seeing and not being able to have. Wanting but never being able to touch. Part of my break with sanity last weekend involved that very topic. So I had to seal that away from me. Which is the only way I can deal with any kind of loss. I am hoping today brings some measure of peace.
Loneliness haunts me too and waking up is my nightmare. It takes me FOREVER to get out of bed. I lie there and play dead until I absolutely have to get up for some reason.
Prince was a positive person and all about partying instead of worrying. I wish I could hold onto that attitude, but my pathetic, depressed, friendless life smacks me back to reality. And dealing with guys makes it worst sometimes, especially when it’s obvious they don’t care. I’m done dealing with people who don’t really give a fuck about me. You can tell in their half-ass texts or when they text back hours and hours later. Nope. Fuck you. Cutting them out of my life. I’ll just be alone instead of chasing someone who isn’t putting as much effort into me. In conclusion: Fuck people. Feel better.