My heart hurts. Emotionally, yes, but the physical pain hurts just as bad. It’s a throbbing pain. It feel bruised and blistered.
I keep trying to talk to people but none of them seem interested. Even the people who mean most to me. It seems hopeless. Suicide thoughts are constant.
I love you Annie. I love you Zoe. I love you Lily. Thank you for being the best parts of my life. And shoutouts to Sam S and Tylee H, and Rylee R, and Jacob B, Nick F, Lynn K, Chase O, Dakota D, my dearest dogs, Anastasia M, Cassie P, X, Ralph Smart, Thich Nhat, Madissun H, Kat F, Shelby J, Amber B, Amanda P, and many more which I do not have time to mention.
If I chose to write a letter, there shall be a section for each one of you.
I’m not leaving tonight. But with my heart in as much pain as it is, i understand the possibility of a short future.
I love all of you. You’re very beautiful.
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I’m glad that you’re not leaving tonight. I wish I could free you of the pain in your heart, but I just don’t understand these things. I’m so powerless.
You don’t deserve to hurt like this at all.
I want the same for you..
You’re not powerless. You give me hope to live
I dunno…from the looks of it, you needed someone yesterday, and I wasn’t there for you.
That’s a lot of names!
It’s good to have a lot of people to love.
I’m sorry I’ve been too weak lately to give you the listening ear you needed. Please forgive me. I wish things were different for both of us.
And I hope the future is a long one instead of a short one.
For both of us.
Please dont leave. Im sorry if i didnt seem interested. Remember that we care.