I’ve been through a lot in the few short years that I have been alive. 26. I’m a father. Prior service. U.S. Army. Bowling champion. Weapons expert. I’ve personally battled childhood obesity. At the age of 17 I weighed over 375. Within the year and a half I lost 175lbs. Enlisted and cultivated my life. Held friends in my arms as they passed away. Saved my family as our house burnt to the ground. Since 2007 I have attempted suicide 5 times. I took over 300 sleeping pills. Loaded shotgun to my chest. CO inhalation. Alcohol poisoning. And short suspension hanging. The pills made me sick. Shotgun was too messy. CO was not effective in any way. Alcohol poisoning I was found nearly frozen on the train tracks in the middle of the night. And the hanging attempt was successful. Until the limb broke.
Step away from the ledge. I’m coming down.
I will be gone.
Shut me off
I’m ready
Heart stops
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You’ve done more with your life than anyone I know. Please don’t let go of that. Also, props to you for saving your family. These aren’t small things you’re talking about; these are things that make parents proud of their children, friends proud of their friends, and acquaintances proud to have met you. Please Don’t let go of that. Who knows what kind of fantastic things you’ll do in the future. Don’t get rid of all the fantastic things you’ve done. I’m sure that you’ve got a future, which is more than lots of people have going. Best of luck to you.