Pain

Well I did it. I made my parents cry again. This has been happening a lot recently. Tonight it was a math problem. I know, don’t say anything, I know. I was trying to complete a math ws, of course I didn’t understand any of it, so I go downstairs to ask for help. My dad begins to explain something in a way that I didn’t comprehend well, and I went off. Anxiety and depression took over, causing me to have a severe breakdown and run to the bathroom to cry. I’ve been in here for an hour now listening to my parents cry and talk about me. I just can’t stop hurting people, and it’s hurting myself. I’m not planning on suicide, because I know I would cause everyone too much of my unbearable pain; however, I don’t know how much longer I can sacrifice my own happiness in order to prolong it in others. :—