I have felt my anxiety getting worse all day long… I know if I distract myself it helps. So my question for whoever reads this is, what’s for dinner or whatever meal is close for you? I cooked up some burgers and homemade steak fries tonight. Damn they were good. I am still anxious but my hopes are that all the beer I’m downing will numb it all away when I hopefully pass out soon. Cheers!
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I had fast food today. I promise that I don’t usually eat fast food. But it happens.
Naturally, though, I now hate every inch of my body. First world problems, am I right?
I strongly recommend against using alcohol to numb anxiety or pain. As far as band-aid solutions go, alcohol is one of the worst ones. But anyway, regardless, I hope you get some good sleep soon. Sleep is always a godsend.
I sometimes crave fast food bad. Not so much anymore considering I don’t have a car I can jump in to go get it. BK used to have this burger called a California Whopper and I would eat them like there was no tomorrow. Avacadoey salty goodness on a burger. That was my favorite work lunch for a good while. I kinda miss it.
As for the alcohol, I know it’s not a good coping strategy. Hard to undo 20 years of coping this way. I am not as bad as I used to be but I definitely still drink more than I should.
What did you get from the fast food place? Wendy’s is my favorite for fast food. Used to be Taco Bell, but I get sick off their food now so that’s a no go.
I’m making green chilies burritos it cooking right now it smells heavenly, distractions always! i’m already thinking what i’m going to make tomorrow, i’m having a few shots of vodka, i’m careful because of the pain meds, my jaw is killing me! from the dentist yesterday, that’s a hard one to distract from, i always go off into my little world, and try to think of anything but problems, they will be there tomorrow.
Did you get that tooth pulled? I hope you enjoy the burritos. Sounds pretty good.
No this was a hard choice, They could save it so i had them patch it up and do a root canal, with a temporary filling, i need the tooth to do a bridge, i don’t want to lose my teeth, but i have to come up with $1500 my portion to do it, if i was still thinking about killing myself i’d say pull it! so i guess i’m sticking around.
Going to the dentist is expensive. Glad they could save your tooth and that you’re planning on sticking around.
How can you still be anxious after eating burgers and fries? If I had to pick one meal for life, I wouldnt, give me meal choice or give me death, but if I did it would be steak and taters. Nothing disciplines feelings of sorrow like a fistful of red meat. In middle school I would envy all the kids whose parents would give them money for school system fries and synthetic cheese while I was gnawing away on one thin pb&j. Now I eat a lot of them. Tonight I’m making ground beef and pasta though. As for anxiety, try drinking hot tea with lemon and honey. If you can get local honey, (within a 250 mile radius is considered local, but really 50 is better) use that.
I went to Applebe’s today and had steak. It was awesome.
I don’t live in a house. I don’t have pots and pans, no kitchen, no fridge, no cooking utensils, all’s I’ve got is the menu & cash.
It’s not a bad iife. I don’t wash dishes and I eat splendidly.
Morris do you live in your car or in a motel? I had an idea you kinda lived the nomad lifestyle from previous comments I’ve read from you. I do have a question for you but don’t want to ask here, do you mind if I shoot you an email?
@wintergirl; I sleep wherever I’m parked, no fixed address. I ‘live’ wherever I happen to be.
You can email me if you want to but I’m kind of anti-social. (It’s not you, it’s me. Sorry).
@Wintergirl Be aware that Morris is kind of the opposite of a nice person, especially with women. 😉
Thanks Nepheliad, I take everything he says with a grain of salt.
Morris, did it for years, nothing wrong with that, now i’m a home body, the cooking started when my mother died, i cook what she made, not sure why, i think because i knew i’d never taste her home cooking again it i didn’t, but now i cook everything. keeps me busy.