I am invisible
i fade into nothing
They don’t see me, or hear me
I hide in the dark.
I wait until they see me.
They never do.
This is killing me.
I’m a suicide survivor of many times. I decided that’s it’s gonna be better to try to have a life. But how do I do that if I’m invisible. There is no one there. All my friends at school tell me they notice me when I say I feel invisible, but I know they don’t. They don’t really want me to be there. I don’t want to talk to them really, but they are the only people that could help, and sometimes I need to talk. But they’ll never understand my mind, they’ll never get me. They think they do, but I know everyone is different, and no one’s mind is the same.
They wouldn’t notice if I disappeared. They would go on all the same. I’ve done it before. Become completely see through for a time. So tired and weary, can’t talk, crying, messy hair, they choose not to see me. It’s their decision. That’s what hurts me. They choose not to see, and help the hurt, scared little girl, who’s is crying because of her past. I atleast deserve a future.
Do you guys feel this way?
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I honestly feel invisible in a few ways…. Like I get noticed IRL, I get really really noticed…. Mostly because I look a bit different, and carry myself differently than most others…. I also tend to force myself into the center of attention often when socializing (normally in a negative way) But I do feel that I don’t actually get noticed or seen by people at all, at least not as who I am…. I guess I feel like I’m an invisible being wearing a costume in order to be seen. But really if your friends don’t actually notice you then, you probably should start trying to find different friends…. although that’s difficult to do. I’m not saying replace your current ones (well you can if you like) but only maybe trying to find someone else that makes you feel visible…. I’m sure there may at least be one person who will somewhere near you…. I hope things go well for you though. ^-^