Sick of Living this Way

This is my story ,this is how my life chance and I can’t take it anymore. I was a perfect person , had a nice job ,and felt great always had my anxiety, but took my medications. Years past and I develop hernieted discs , pinched nerves on panic attacks, over my 20 years in the same job. I had treatment sygery until it was almost impossible to continue doing my job. I asked to be relocated to a light duty job. But it was denied. My mother was diagagnosed with terminal cancer. I was like crazy. I ask for some time off after 20 years ,they told me no , the only option for my conditions I need to go for disability. So I did , later they send me a letter saying I have 90 days to aply for my SSD benefit or they will do it for me. They never gave me one penny for all my years of service. I was so depressed that I was almost monthly in a asylum. They approve my SSD. Two years later the FBI Come looking for me because I made fraud and paid a doctor mor my conditions that it wasn’t true. The arrest me ridicule me.  Send me to doctors ,stop my benefits ,I prove them wrond ,and what they did ? They threatened my family for me to plead guilty of not informing SS an incident , incident that they never explained to me. It’s been 3 years I can’t barely walk. Have panic attack weekly. Still my ziquiatrist sais to me it was abuse of power. Don’t find a lawyer that can help me. SSD still have my case unsolved because I prove with all my evidence I was telling the truth. I don’t have money for my medications ,treatment, food ,cloth. I can’t sleep. Now I ask what’s the point of continue with this miserable life I have. Every time I tell my pziquiatrist he send me to an azylum again. I really wanna leave this world and my life. I’m tired of the injustice. I hate the world I hate my life.