Newbie…

Okay. So I just read about that thing called Smooth Passages on some YA novel and was wondering if it does really exist. Not that I’m looking for a way to die or anything. The thing is, I don’t want to want to die. I don’t have depression or at least I don’t think so. But I do have severe social anxiety, and I think it’s close, if only a bit. I just don’t like being scared of the world, I don’t like having no one to talk to when everything just hurts, I don’t want to be afraid that people are going to judge me when they see who I really am. Because all those things make me want to die. I don’t want to want to die.