*sighs* How annoying. The moment when everything comes together perfectly and when my blind rage finally ends is when she decides she wants nothing more to do with me… I’m even going back to my old personality with more patience. The personality that caused her to like me in the first place. Oh well, guess it can’t be helped and I’ll always regret being too slow to escape my anger.
Apparently, I’m going to scare Shatterediris away (his words, not mine) due to my “new” personality. So this relationship is now doomed to fail… I wonder if that makes me scarier than a bunch of spiders now. Heh, that is amusing but still disappointing. It seems the only way Iris will be calm is if my attraction is pointed elsewhere. Kind of difficult to do when he is the only available recipient… Oh well, if I scare him off, it will be another notch to my belt or relationships my depression/apathy ruined.
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Try not to be so self-destructive… you’re just feeding your own misery, like a parasitic demon moth hovering above you who lives by collecting all your negative energy. You should break free of the demon and realize when you’re falling into your old damaging habits, and resolve NOT to keep sabotaging yourself and making the people around you feel bad, too.
Happiness can’t come from negativity, so tell yourself you deserve happiness, and start treating yourself and others respectfully and responsibly. Maybe then, your relationships will work out.
Becoming happy means accepting the fact I am a demon. Things like morality and ethics really are worthless to me. Part of my depression stems from the fact a part of me tries to fight against the demon. A part of me doesn’t want to acknowledge the possibility that I could easily become a serial killer if I wanted to…
I never said that though…. -_-
Iris, even you have to admit an asexual and a hypersexual seems like a match destined to fail…
yeah -_-
Well, then learn how to respect yourself and others, like I said (and don’t call yourself a demon). If you wouldn’t want someone to take your life or do anything to you without your consent, why would you do such things to anyone else?
People’s bodies are their own and no one has the right to take away another person’s life, unless it’s in a case of self-defense (I suppose war goes under this category). If you were a military sniper you would have targets to hit which wouldn’t be fair for the targets, BUT one would think that nearly everyone in these situations are aware that their life is always in danger (including the sniper themselves).
Regular citizens going about their daily existence, on the other hand, gave no implicit consent to be killed. They expect to live until they’re old, or until they develop a fatal illness or something like that (or suicide), and they should never feel threatened by mentally unbalanced people who want to take out their rage upon the innocent.
These mentally unbalanced people should instead seek therapy of some kind in order to prevent them from doing anything to harm others (including those they know personally, like family and friends).
I mean, being gang-raped in prison and humiliated 24/7 wouldn’t be so fun, would it now? (Please don’t say something like, “Oh but I would deserve such treatment.” Nope, you do not, not if you check any thoughts of violently antisocial behavior NOW, before it can occur.)