Is there no point for me anymore? I’ve noticed some things. Things going on in my life. Things that make me think I’m better off dead. Nobody appreciates my existence anymore. Nobody seems to care about me. Even if they say they do, I feel that they must be lying. I feel like they are just saying it and there is no truth behind it.
My friends don’t laugh at my jokes anymore…
I guess I shouldn’t be surprised. I should’ve known that people would leave me behind sooner or later. I don’t think it’s their fault, I think it’s mine. I feel as though I’m seen more as a nuisance than as a precious friend. I know they probably don’t see it that way, but for some reason, I don’t feel our connection as strong as it was before. Maybe it’s just me… I really hope it’s just me… Please let it all just be in my head…
I’m sorry… I’m not your hero anymore.
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I’ve noticed you always finish your posts with that: “I’m sorry… I’m not your hero anymore”.
Did you feel pressure to be someone’s hero at some point? That’s a lot to expect of yourself… Or to have expected of you from another. People have to save themselves, you can show support but ultimately the choice is theirs
They don’t laugh… Do you still laugh?
Saying sorry is maybe to me you are trying to meet peoples expectations and stuff.I feel for you..maybe a free codependent local support group where you meet nin judgemental people and speak your frustrations and meet new people similar situations.stay strong