Death Date or Sooner

A lot has been going on and all I have been doing was making it worse. My death date in going to be sometime in May 2017. But what I can’t handle, is going on now and I want it to end sooner. In May I have 3 important things that I have to go to. 1. is my grandparents 50th anniversary party, 2. is my aunts wedding and I’m going to be part the whole thing, 3. results if I’m getting into one of the schools I want to get into. If I do it now, I won’t be around to see any of these, in which I think will  make it easier to leave, because after I would feel guilty for leaving and I’d stop myself. So the sooner the better, I guess.