just another stupid rant.

i am finally home. then when i was finally able to see my girlfriend again all i could do was cry i felt like i couldn’t even move. i would want to but when i did its like i got smacked down saying no, you don’t deserve to move. then before i even notice she’s gone and it fells like i didn’t even get to talk or be with her. when i get stuck i hate myself for it. I’m screaming just stop, just get up. but knowing how  stupid it is only makes me hate so much more. i understand now. screaming from the bottom of well hoping someone will hear you, and when they do hoping you won’t fuck it up and say the wrong thing. i think i might cut myself.