Is it progression if a cannibal uses a fork?
-Chiodos
I always thought this title was just some abstract bull shit. It never clicked. I get it now..
And heres what it inspired.
I pulled a gun today
Put a bullet in the chamber
The trigger felt okay
But fought against my finger
My hands began to shake
As i thought about the pain
Maybe this is not the way
put the gun down again
I pulled a knife today
Sounds like progress to me
Perhaps it wouldnt kill me
At least not as badly
I put it to my throat
And in red ink i wrote
A flatline
disguised as a note
I held some pills today
Frowned at the taste
Lowering the risk
Progressing i think
They fell from my hand
Scattered on the floor
Maybe tomorrow ill find more
I found a rope today
Tied a knot that stayed
Fit it to my neck
And stood unphased
But the chair wouldnt move
My feet wouldnt let it
So i didnt hang today
Progress. I said it.
2 comments
Chilling, inspiring or profoundly defeating, depending on what your attitude is while reading it. Chilling to someone who has never been there. Inspiring to someone who is there and fighting for a way out. Profoundly defeating to someone who is sick of fighting every day. In any case, powerful.
Wow. This is powerful. It really does capture the essence of the back and forth struggle.