nine months till I reach my birthday. The one day where I decide to live or not. Plan was 18 but my girlfriend stopped me. But she doesn’t want to be together now. So whose gonna stop me now. I dont know what I wanna do with my life. I wanted to do great things to make her and her family happy but other than that i dont know what I want. I dont know what I want to do for me. I always put her before me. But I guess I haven’t been the best boyfriend there is. I just don’t know.
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It’s okay if things didn’t work out with her. Give your life a new meaning. I’m sure ull find one of you look hard enough
Well I am sorry to hear that you are considering ending your life at such and early age.
18 or anywhere near there is very young to die. I would like to encourage you to try and live a little longer. Because I will tell you. being a teenager in this world can be hard. and when you are a teen sometimes there are issues in your life that seem like they are super huge problems. But if you live a little longer you will come to realize that whatever issues you are facing now are not worth ending your life over. My life was aweful for the first 23 years of life. Life didnt start to get good for me until I was about 24. So things can get better. Now I am 44 and my life is BETTER NOW then it ever has been! So I just want to tell you to try and hang in there. Life is not always going to be as hard as it is for you now. Things get better when you get a little older. As far the boyfriend thing. Well just let that go. Teenage relationships dont last that long in most cases. So I would say Just move on > dont worry if you were a bad boyfriend or not. just get on with your life. Also you need to take some time to LIVE FOR YOU>
Forget about doing everything to please other people and take some time to get to know yourself and what you want from life. Try to choose a career path and get to work and start making money. When you make money you can then afford the life you want and you will be happy in life. Some of the best years of my life were when I had a job I liked and did that job and made the money I needed to afford to do things I like
I wish you the best
If you are willing to face death and the unknown, you should be willing to face any scary, mysterious, threatening thing in this world or even boredom and depression. You could walk around like you are unbreakable. Anyway, you have a long life ahead of you. Coming to this earth and living life as a human is a gift. You don’t get a second chance to be human in the physical form on this planet. You made an agreement. Even if you can’t remember the meaning of life or your agreement to do certain things here, doesn’t really matter. It’s likely you will discover your purpose given time. Taking your life would destroy your family. It would affect people you don’t even know and change things that were not meant to be changed. If God wanted it to be your time, he would take you. My son was only 21 when he hung himself. I can’t wait to see him on the other side so I can say, “REALLY??? Are you kidding me, Drew?” I know there is forgiveness, but he left me powerless. He is dead. Do you really understand what it means? It’s not about you. Your life isn’t your life to take because of what suicide would do to the rest of the world. Get noticed on the other side for how you lived your life; don’t try to get noticed on this side for how you died. If you don’t think your mom or others would care or that they will “get over it.” you are wrong. I will never be OK….not just OK with his death but I will never be OK period. I know Drew regrets it now, but it’s too late for him. He can’t untie the sheet or put back his ashes and hold my hand or hug me. I hope you put this talk of suicide to rest and get on with your life and be a good son and a good person in this world.
So very sorry for your loss. You seem like a great mom enduring a pain that I would never wish on anyone. I want you to know that I hear your voice. The voice of a grieving mother.
It is not an easy thing to stop being suicidal, usually people who are suicidal are suffering from serious depression, which is a medical condition. Not an easy thing to turn off, but reading posts like yours does encourage me to give treatment another shot. I don’t want to leave broken people in my wake. You’ll be in my prayers.