Think I was only here a few days ago. Seems an eternity now.. I’ve now pussied out, and told my family how I’m feeling when I was drunk yesterday. Bad decision I think cause now they’re gonna try to get me help. Shite!
I don’t want their help or anyone else’s help, but the only method I’ve had was the train, and I simply haven’t got it in me to do it. I’ve accepted that. I’ve watched some sucide train videos and thought “you crazy bastards how did you manage to do it hitting that thing at 150mph.” I just aint got the balls if for it tbh. I understand the desperation when you ain’t gotta another method, but I simply ain’t got it in me to do it to my family or the driver even though It would end my pain.
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I’m glad you’re still here, Woody.
Names Paul actually lol
Hi, Paul. lol
Yeah I sometimes look at these videos of people who light themselves on fire or do some crazy method to kill themselves, they must have some determination. I would love to end my life right now if I could but like you I’m to scared to do it, I wish I could find an easy way out and have my family forget me but there doesn’t seem to be any easy way out.