Nico here.
I’ve grown too lazy to put Day __ so I’m putting numbers only instead. I.. I relapsed and cut myself. It stings but, I missed it. Charming knows but she’s not disappointed in me. At least that’s what she says. The cuts are on my thighs now, since in my culinary class I have to roll up my sleeves. I have friends like me there too, and I notice how some people stare at their arms cause of their scars. I don’t want to go through that.
They’re healing, but I feel like I’m gonna do it again soon. My parents just keep making me feel like shit. ..My mom wants me to get plastic surgery for my breasts. It makes me feel disgusting. I like being flat surprisingly haha. But telling me I should get plastic surgery.. I’m not even 18 yet. That’s disgusting.
Oh, I also found a song that I could relate too so much my elementary through first two years of middle school days. It’s called “Aishite, Aishite, Aishite.” or in english,”Love me, Love me, Love me.” It’s pretty dark, but then again most things on here are dark. I’ll put the link down below if you guys are interested. It’s pretty good.
Ugh.. I have a bunch of homework to do.. I’m not in the mood. I’m gonna have to though.. so I’m logging off for now.
Starting to feel numb like a Robot, Nico.
2 comments
Hello. Sorry you hurt yourself. I’ve never been able to cut myself. You said you missed the feeling. What feeling exactly? Also it’s good to hear that you are comfortable with your body. Your mother should know better. Sorry you have to put up with that. I hope you get better.
Hi Nico! I love reading your post. Sorry to hear you have relapsed! Parents though they care can often just say the wrong things!! My mom has shown me that sooooo many times!! Its good to know you are happy with your body!! Long as your happy why on earth change it right. Anyway hope you post again soon! Take care.