Hello everyone! I am a father (non-custodial parent) of 2 boys. For the past 8 years I’ve spent fighting I. Family court to advocate for my equal parental rights, as to ensure my bond with my children….Long story short…I lost. The mother proved to be to manipulative. Its funny because the more I fought to be in my children’s life, the more she fought to keep me away. There is really no way I can at this point, classify her as a human being. I’ve had countless, never ending, suicidal/homicidal ideations and the emotional Pain I feel is beyond this world!! To describe my pain better, I hate this woman so much, as she left me for dead psychologically and emotionally, I believe that not even killing her is gonna heal my pain. At times I can bear the pain, however, most of the time I’m left feeling my heart is bleeding to death. At times I feel like I’m a lose control and loss my mind…. I’m going into the abyss and not coming out……..Just another broken hearted father who just wanted to be with his kids. I’m in Therapy and see a psychiatrist as well.
share your suicide story
Report Post
Please log in to report posts
4 comments
I hate women like this….and I am a woman. I understand things go horribly wrong in relationships but why make the kids suffer out of spite? I am so sorry you are going through this. Hopefully she will not succeed in destroying your kids relationship with you completely and they will eventually see her for what she is and has done and not hold it against you and want you in their lives later when old enough to decide that for themselves. It’s not fair to them or you if you are indeed a decent dad.
This woman is nothing but a selfish Fucken *****!! I can’t stand cunts like her every child needs and wants to know there real father’s. Just stay around get yourself together because they will come looking for you one day when they are older and you can tell them the truth about their mother. Why you were not there for them. Trust me every child has issues which involve their biological parents. You can’t kill yourself it would screw them up when they found out and the reasons why.
Thank you jaded jewel and soulsister…..
My friend, I’m going to assume you’re in the US of A. The land of divorces, lawyers, and custody battles.
I could write a book about how silly and unethical the very idea of a custody battle is, because I’m of the opinion that, if you produced a child, you automatically have 50% rights (and by the same token, responsibilities) when it comes to being a parent. Even if you’re a schizophrenic serial killer. Your sperm produced that child, and that is all that matters … the child is yours. No court on this Earth has the authority to tell you otherwise.
Back to reality, now, first off, I empathize with you greatly. Though I have never been in such a battle, I can imagine what it must be like. The mom is simply unable to see past her ego that wants to get back at you because your relationship with her didn’t work out. She is unable to see the loving and caring father that you clearly are, and that it is your God-given right to see your boys. Not to mention, they need you !
I must tell you this, my man … no matter how much you hate your ex (which is understandable), please don’t follow through with homicidal thoughts. It’s not worth it, my friend. You will be made to look like the bad guy in the eyes of society (even though the opposite is true), and you will lose all your freedoms.
The bottom line is that the world is designed to make people want to kill themselves/others. It drives us to insanity. It is not your fault. The legal system that is depriving you of your sons is part of that world. Please don’t let it be your WHOLE world. Find a way to liberate yourself from this injustice … one that does NOT involve homicide.
Please, please, please … find a way NOT to act on your homicidal thoughts.
As for the suicidal thoughts, I’m not going to be on this site and be a hypocrite … it does solve all problems … no doubt about that.
Peace and love to you, brother.