I have concluded that I will not succeed, and never have I in the past. Succeed with what? Not death, life. Either way, I have tried to stop it all, but that did not work. I am willing and able to give it another shot. I will post this on here to aid in my inability to recall, I can’t recall a thing. From, before. Dissociation. I am upset. I heard the music again today and I feel like I’m at my last straw, who knew where it was coming from? Not I? It sounds so happy but I am not.
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Sometimes it’s better to not worry about succeeding. I feel like there’s only one definition for success, and it’s over fucking rated. I suck at advice…. but ya.
Thank you.
Me I am not a successful person in life right now either. I mean I am 44 years of age and i have managed to get buy in life up to this point. Always had a place to stay and most of my life I had a car and clothes and the basics the people need. I am fairly educated and also a law biding citizen and a good person.. have never been arrested and have not gotten into any real trouble in life. BUT, I have very little in savings right now and I cant even afford a car. Luckily my dad is going to help me buy a car soon and from then on > my life will get better. But I do not own a home or a condo or anything. I am just renting. I have never been married and well I am not sure if that is ever going to happen in life… probably wont unless I can improve my situation in life and then meet the right person. I am very pissed off at myself in life…because I did not wake up in life until it was too lat to make something of my life. Meaning I did not get on the ball in life and start trying to better m myself until much later then most people. A lot of people get an education in a good field and then are able to get out and make a good living and be able to afford the good things in life. but me I am just getting by and its depressing. Its depressing that a lot of people at my age have houses and cars and are married and have kids and go on trips and here I am just getting by. I am lonely most of the time and do not have enough money to do a lot of things I want to do in life. Its depressing. I often dream of hitting the lottery and then being able to live the good life.. but it probably wont happen
Luckily my dad is pretty well off.. so maybe he will leave me a house or something that I can sell and then live off of that money later in life for retirement.
I am pretty much a loser in life
Thanks for sharing, I’m deeply sorry for the current situation that you are in, I do too hope that maybe he does leave something for you. Meeting people isn’t a thing that can be rushed, but maybe getting yourself out there will help? But the realisation is better late than never.