Hello Fellow SPians!
I wanted to stop by and wish you all the best and send you good vibes wherever y’all are!
At the same time, wanted to ask you something.
By definition, I had a WONDERFUL Christmas. Just enough people, dear friends and beloved
family members, a delicious meal and a good amount of tasty drinks. From the good old eggnog
to scotch, beer, wine. My wife’s dinner menu included several desserts she made that were
out of this world delicious. And presents? Oh boy, many presents given and received! The
game I wanted. The gadget I wanted. The stuff my son wanted. The books and gadget my daughter
wanted. The jacket my wife wanted. And as of next Wednesday, the trip we’ve been looking forward
to all year..!
But I feel empty inside. WHY?
In the middle of supper, I had to go to the bathroom to cry a little. And again by the time our last
guest had left.
I feel like shit because I have all this and I still don’t feel full, and it’s not so much about filling
the void but the feeling of being consumed by that hole within me…
Help. Please.
2 comments
I sometimes wonder if for some of us there’s something structurally wrong with our brains or fundamentally flawed in our souls that no amount of earthly pleasures or fulfillment will ever be enough. We will always dream of something more, even if it’s something were unable to describe, or unwilling to communicate to others because they aren’t possible in this world. I don’t know your story, but I can relate to what you’ve said, even when I had it all, I still felt dead and empty inside. I hope one day you find what you’re truly searching for, I hope that for all of us. That’s all I’ve got, happy holidays and merry fuckthisshitmas.
It’s not out of the ordinary to crave what you don’t have while you just take for granted what you do have, happens to… i’d say almost everyone at some point? (there has to be some exceptions). Maybe you feel that something is missing? or it might be all the opposite, maybe you’re really grateful for everything you have and you’re somehow scared that it goes away? in the end only you can find the answer to what’s the issue there, but if you can’t do it yourself you could search for a therapist to help you find that answer. Sometimes a good, long talk with someone neutral is all it takes, been there at some point of my life… and sure, not everything has worked out for me (otherwise why would i be here? lol), but that at moment, i did find the answer i was looking for. Good luck on that search, and happy holidays.