Anyone here ever get over trauma and/or self-hatred?
I feel once the dam is broken, it is already too late. Once the thoughts of suicide enter your brain, I don’t think there is a way to reverse that.
I am pretty sure it is too late to save me from my pain.
Maybe some of you are lucky and have people that love you but I have nothing.
My self-esteem got demolished and for 5 years I have wanted to die and it has only gotten worse. It feels like torture. I didn’t deserve this pain. The saddest part is that the cause to my suffering wasn’t even in my control, this wasn’t even my fault.
I will be trying antidepressants and will start to talk to a therapist soon even knowing neither will fix me. This is the last resort and at least this way, I think I could kill myself without feeling guilty. I can already feel that I am at the final chapter of my life. I can truly feel that my life will be ending soon.
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You’re lucky to have no one that loves you. Those that have people that ‘love’ them will fall the hardest when they find out that it was just a facade, a fake, a word they toss out so they can get what they can from you and leave you demolished. If you have no one that loves you then you’re free of the burden. The love by a human is bull shit and comes with conditions, complications and an expiration date. The love by a good dog, however, I’d take that any time.