Have everything set I just have to have the guts to actually go through with it. My mind keeps making up excuses as to why I should wait till the next day or wait till I am not having my death coincide with a familiar date.
I am alone, miserable and wish I was not here anymore. I have contemplated the 72 hour hold again but they will give me more pills I cannot refill and make me sleep and give me horrible nightmares.
I cannot believe I let Ambien ruin my marriage. Yes it was the ambien at the end that put the relationship out of reach.
If anyone wants to talk just PM me skype or facebook as I have both.
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Hey man, was wondering how you were holding up. I’ve got my money coming in soon, I was thinking about your means of exit. I might try it myself.
Hope things are going better for you than they are for me
Like crap. Have not slept in three days now and am losing weight as I have no appetite. Disgusted I cannot pull the trigger yet. I am trying to talk myself back into it. I am such a wimp it is pathetic.
Sitting here watching youtube videos and wondering when I will get the nerve back up to finish it.
Totally hearing ya. I’ve slept this week, but it’s a catch 22. When I don’t sleep everything goes through my mind, and when I sleep I wake up and realise I’m still bloody here, and it’s not actually a bad dream.
I’m barely eating one meal a day now, and even that lies in my stomach. Luckily the alcohol means I’m not losing too much weight.
Yeah, I feel ya. I’ve been sleeping too much, I see no reason not to. I’ve lost about 20 pounds in two weeks, if not more.
I’ve been looking into knot tying a lot. But I have stupid fingers and figure that would fail.
I got served divorce papers yesterday after my wife cried and said she missed and loved me. Wishes things were different. But, then told me nothing has changed she feels the same about the divorce.
Two days ago she told me she didn’t care if I killed myself, just don’t do it around her
My goodness Sum, that is terrible. There is a heavy metal band with something I think can help you. Or if you want you can send me a message at my name @gmail.