honestly I don’t know why I’m here. I tried to search for help lines but there aren’t any available where I live (funny how I have to use this word), so eventually I ended up here. I am now at the point where I’ve decided and arranged everything but the site that I used as information resource kept mentioning this three day rule and I’m giving it a try. basically after you test everything and you are absolutely sure that your method will work, you are supposed to wait three days to see if something changes. this was the first day and, as expected, things are only getting worse. I’ve spent my two salaries (yes, I work two jobs) on my medical bills that don’t ensure my recovery and got into an argument with a family member. not to mention the usual inability to do even the most basic of daily tasks, although it took me only an hour to get out of bed today and I even managed to force in a meal. however, my motivation for it was mostly because it will all end soon. I just can’t wait to die. I’ve always been a little suicidal, but I kinda thought that it’s a weakness. the past couple of years I’m okay with being weak. there are no reasons for me to struggle anymore. if you are still reading this, thank you. I’m very sceptical about my ability to follow the three day rule and I don’t know if I’ll make it through the night, especially with everything ready and accessable, so you might as well be the last person to give me some sort of attention and I’m truly grateful for that.
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You sounded serious and ready. Sorry you weren’t able to spend some time here and chat with us. You certainly may do so if you change your mind, you know. I wish you the best – whatever that means for you.
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thank you. I will stick around for a couple of days. people here seem really nice and understanding. I’ve read a bunch of posts yesterday and it helped me calm down a little.
Hi, you say there aren’t any help lines in your area, but there is a national hotline you can call:
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
Call 1-800-273-8255
They also have a chat apparently. Don’t know if it’ll help but it’s something you can try.
thanks. I guess I should have searched harder, but probably won’t have enough courage to actually call them anyway.
I understand the basic daily tasks thing. I’m struggling with them as well. No movivation or energy now for basic tasks.
Three choices really. Suicide, going to a hospital or maintaing the status quo. Only one that appeals to me is suicide. It’ll Get me the fuck of out my mind once and for all.
hospitals (and most people) here don’t even recognise depression as a serious illness and there is very little information about it. the only places that offer help are overpriced private clinics.
I’m sorry to hear that you’re in such pain.
May I ask how you plan to accomplish your final transition ?
And the website that mentions the 3 day rule ? Can you share a link ?
I’m not sure if this is allowed by this site’s rules because I’ve read somewhere that sharing suicide methods here might get you banned and I really wouldn’t want to trouble local moderators. But you can search for “lostallhope”. It has a lot of information and a good “help me” section that kept me alive for the past two days. also thank you for your compassion.
as an update on my situation, I successfully lived the second day. it’s very cold outside, the work was slow and some random guy fell asleep leaning on me in the subway on my way home. one of my friends called, too, but I didn’t pick up the phone. we aren’t really friends anymore. we used to be close but our lifestyles are too different now and I don’t want to burden him with my current state.