Where to go from here

2016 was such a shit year. I lost my home, my partner went to prison, my family got seperated and my car wrecked….. Ive also been sexually abused, and sexually harrassed. I dont feel like moving forward. Every relationship i try to get in is almost impossible to try and make it work. Ifeel like that person is trying to take over my life or try to be very controlling.. I was in a controlled relationship for 7yrs so of course thats my only default. Wtf to do.. Im loosing my mind and i just want to leave this world.