All my life I’ve tried to do the right thing and all my life I got pain and abuse.
Years back everything was destroyed by a hurricane and lost that I owned and my health started to fail.
In 2014 my father died due to med mal. I’m on disability having gotten a severe debilitating condition. I’m in massive chronic pain. Greedy relatives tried to the little money my father had.
I have no one to help me.
In 2015 I got abused by 2 medical facilities and imprisoned in one due to a false statement someone made. I witnessed an African-American beaten by hospital security severely in the room next too me. I’m given incorrect medications from what I do take for diabetes and my other health problems. The facility lies to my emergency medical contact.
I try and report the abuse when I get out. State agencies and others cover it up. The lawyer who was handling the med mal drops it. My primary arm is crippled because of what the hospital did to me.
My medical records have been altered and list incorrect medications, previous surgeries, and other things. I can’t get proper medical treatment for what they did too me.
I learn that my heart is now bad too due to the massive stress and injuries I’ve gotten.
I collapsed in public 2 weeks ago because the physical pain and stress are so bad. I have no energy and am in massive physical and mental pain. They place I’m at gets an ambulance and they say my blood pressure is dangerously high. The next day I’m in an ER as I feel like I did before I collapsed.
I tried and had to file a case my self to get justice for what they did to me. I’m forced to drop it as I get letter stating that I’ll be hit with fines and court fees if I don’t drop it A week ago
I lose a flash drive last week while rushing to drop my case. No one returns the drive and I have irreplaceable data on it. A final insult. The few things I was trying to do and had done before my hand became crippled were on it too.
I’m still being hounded and they are still trying to hit me with court fees even though I dropped my case.
I have nothing to live for. I try and od on meds a week ago after I’m told to drop my case or else and just end up knocked out.
I will try again with a large amount of meds in the near future. I want to die and am so tired. I have no hope or joy anymore.
Never would have done that before but they pain has gotten the better of me.
I dedicated mt entire life to study and helping people and I got nothing. There is no god, no angels, nothing, all that exists is pain and darkness. Never dated, never did drugs, never abused or hurt others, never drank alcohol, or smoked. I’m nearly 50 and had to take care of others all my life.
I get a little over 600 a month to live on and can’t even afford new clothes. My clothes all have holes in them. All I can afford is one meal a day and place to live at with my disability. My teeth are all bad an medicaid won’t cover any entail or other medical treatments I need.
I hate the world and I hate my life. People are too cruel and only care about money. People are vile and selfish I have learned. You get some exceptions, but the nasty ones are more common.
All my dreams, hopes, and aspirations, are gone now. I’m in so much physical pain. When I die I will not be missed.
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Before you attempt anything, I’d like to tell you to please consider all the wonderful aspects life has to offer. From art, music, laughter, etc. It’s never too late to hope, and the next time you go to sleep. Wake up and try something you’ve never done before. You’d be amazed of how big this world is, and what could be waiting for you. Remember, there are no guarantees, but at least try to turn your life around, before making such a drastic decision.
I am only half your age but, through my personal life experience, I know what you said to be true.
All of the good people I know end up being used, abused and exploited.
What do you have to loose? Why would you drop the suit? Why don’t you record all their threats, try to gather evidence against them? Will you go down without a flight? It’s up to you. I see no other solution.
because when you’re sick/disabled, it’s not so easy to “fight.” Even simple daily tasks are hard, let alone fighting some injustice or the medical industrial complex.
Etenaldarkess stated the reason accurately that it was to difficult to pursue it due to being disabled. I can barely move most days and take a lot of pain pills because of what was done to me.
Even if I wasn’t in chronic pain I couldn’t pursue due to the costs involved too.
The law is set up in my state so that any medical cases in court are difficult, expensive, and time consuming to pursue. They state did this to cut down on the number of med mal cases that go before the court and to prevent people trying to get outrageous judgements. They put serious damage caps in place so even if a person wins you could end up owing the court, attorney’s etc. more than you got back.
Oh and one of the attorneys is still trying to get me served with court fines, even though I dropped the case. I had a server bang on my door twice yesterday once during mid day and the other time was at nearly midnight. I didn’t open the door and looked out of another window.
I still may have to go to court even though the case was dropped. At this point this is harassment by legal means they are doing.
The state is still trying to shut down the state hospital board investigation appeal. The state didn’t investigate and basically let the medical facilities involved investigate themselves and refused to investigate the more serious things. That wasn’t dropped as that costs me nothing and isn’t time consuming to pursue even being disabled, but they ran things so long the statue of limitations to take criminal action against the individuals involved has expired.
Yeah, what you say about people is right, sadly. I’m sorry.
There is not much thing we can do here for you. But we listen to your story. Since getting things off our chest at least seems to let us reflect on ourselves – time of reflection, as if writing a diary, I hope it works for you, even if temporarily. My heart is already giving you a pat on the shoulder though
This hits home because I can relate and am going through the same things. You got that right, kind people will always get the short end of the stick. They will just use and abuse you, taking advantage of your kindness then discard you as soon as they get what they want. Like you, I’m kinda alone and depressed. The only consolation i have is tjat I have a girlfriend i can lean on despite the struggles I am undergoing right now.
This is why i’ve always wanted for people like us to form groups and be together to at least share our struggles and have a shoulder to lean on. What we sorely lack is the camraderie and friendships that is an essential part of our humanity making us more depressed in the process. Depression really isn’t something that can be cured by medicines. It’s the whole sum of our experiences and outlook in life that makes us happy or sad.