I can’t help feeling that there’s something terribly wrong with reality. Not just my little screwed up corner of it, but the whole thing. There’s something missing, but I can’t describe what it is. I wake up feeling this sense of loss, but I’m not sure what it’s for.
I just know that the world shouldn’t be this. Without knowing how it should be different. There’s an absence of the significance that somehow should exist. This is a world without Gods, spirits, ancestors, or magic. And I know that none of those things would fill the void. But there’s something else that’s missing too. Something with more significance. If only I could put my finger on what it was.
Rationally, I know that the world is how it is. There’s no way it should be. Things just are. Reality takes no heed of our expectations or wishes. And yet I can’t help feeling that things should be different.
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I feel you.
I think people have always needed more than what is. All the things you mentioned. Gods, spirits, magic those were all created by people needing something more. That needed immortality, a deeper connection to everything around them, something beyond the physical reality. They needed something to give meaning and a higher purpose to existence.
But why should that be the case? How is it adaptive to need somethings that doesn’t exist?
And more importantly, what do you do once you’ve realized that’s the case? If you still feel that need, yet recognize that the things traditionally meant to fulfill it are artificial creations. How do you invest them with the same amount of meaning?
The adaptation was our intelligence which has done a lot for humanity. I would just consider this a negative byproduct of human intelligence. As far as what you can do, I have no idea. Once you see through the delusions. When you believe in nothing, but you need something to believe in. How do you trick yourself into believing in something when you know you are just trying to trick yourself into believing it.
Agreed.
smoke some grass man