I’m not that special. I’m just anonymous. I’m just alone.

^ Puzzle ^ hint: look closer

Hello, friend. First post here, hope I won’t be too far off.

I have a bunch of problems, like most people I’m sure, but a particularly devastating one is computer addiction. I would say it is kind of like cyber dependence, but include more things, like programming. Slowly built my life around it, took computer programming courses, worked in that field and everything.

But then, reality kicks in at some point, ruined my health, made me almost a recluse. I think I have trust issues because of it, since I’ve had so little human interaction, much less than your average joe anyway. Pretty much kept me into an undeveloped state socially, but made me kinda competent on a technical level. I have a diverse curriculum of technical skills, like programming, 3d, car mechanic, repairs of all kinds including electronics and small appliances, wood and metal crafting, and a bunch of other, no-human-involved hobbies, I guess.

Where did it start? I really don’t know, I guess it’s a combination of things. My father bought a pc (and not a game console like my friends) when I was young. I was also the only child, and I had a half decent brain to learn it, I guess. Parents didn’t really control how much I would use it either, so I spend a lot of time in front of it. Found out later in life that my parents were kind of alcoholics (not apparent or violent tho), but my dad died at age 46 because of it (I was 18), and after his death, my mom kinda up the dose quite a bit, to say the least. Might have been the reason they didn’t have that much energy to do things and to police their son out of the computer room.. I dunno. Also was that summer house, that we went 3 months per year every year, completely disconnected from society. No electricity, no phone, no running water.. so I think I build myself into a closed bubble of my own mind there. There was some people, like my cousins, but it was pretty deep into the woods still, lol.

Therapist is slowly trying to get me off the screen, and to try to work on human relations, but it seems like a losing battle, especially at my age. I didn’t abandon yet, but the suicide option is quite tempting, most of the week anyway.

Hope you don’t get caught up in the same trap that I did.

The picture on top of the post is a crypto-ish puzzle I made, that kind of illustrate the problem in itself, seeing how much time I’ve spent on it. Was inspired from the deleted post by The Last Snorlax, some time ago..  enjoyed it very much, thanks. Also should thank atintofgreen and lifeneverends for inspiration and testing. Should be solvable using online tools only.

There are many hint in the puzzle, hope it isn’t too hard to solve.

Have fun!

Suggestions on puzzle stuff can be mailed to tripecente@gmail.com

cheers