My sister’s friend is planning on killing herself. It could be happening right now for all I know, and I need to get this out.
I haven’t posted on here in a long time, because I’m okay, but this is not okay. My sister has finally fallen asleep after stressing about this all day, but I can’t sleep.
I talked this person out of suicide once before, years ago, but everyone seems to have accepted that this is a thing that is happening right now. And it’s not like there’s anything I can do about it.
Right now in this room, it feels as though the world has come to an end. And in some ways it has; the world as we know it has gone. It is different now, even if she isn’t gone yet, it is fundamentally different.
And there’s nothing I can do. I can’t contact anyone about it, to try and stop it, and I know she wouldn’t want me to stop it from happening.
This is so fucked up, and this will weigh on my conscience for a long time.
And tomorrow, if it turns out that she has done it, I have to tell my girlfriend that I knew she was going to do it, and did nothing. I’m dreading it.
The world is ending. And it’s so fucked up.
-M
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Just get help for her. Maybe you know for a reason. Or find her. Give her someone to talk to. She let you know. Maybe she wants you to help her. I know all the time we are suffering and want relief but man i know how you feel. She’s your sister. Just my two cents
I mean your sisters friend. Do you know her parents? As a mom, I can tell you , you wouldn’t get over this. As much as I’ve struggled with all these issues, I pray all the time that my kids won’t have them because it will kill me if they do. I know. I’m old. And probably meddling. But it’s one thing if you don’t know. It’s another if you do. I’m sorry that you are in this position.