I’m here. Just kind of existing in the middle of the night. Trying to focus my mind on something. I just picked up a new suspense novel, but I’ve kind of reached a stopping point. Anyway, lonely is a word for it. My thing is that I don’t feel like I can share my general bleak outlook with people around me, when I’m dark like I am right now I just tell them I’m not feeling well. They know what I mean. The pain for me throws into sharp relief how little empathy I feel from others. Usually I’m a loner, I support the people around me but they hardly support me.
correction, the support me if I ask them in a certain way. At this point I’m tired of trying to make them understand.
Sometimes I can go a whole day without talking to someone. I’m not sure if it’s because of social anxiety or depression. But it’s a lose lose situation. I either feel lonely if I don’t, or have panic attacks if I do.
P.s. If you or anyone else is feeling lonely too, my email is devinbelver@yahoo.com if you want someone to talk to
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I’m here. Just kind of existing in the middle of the night. Trying to focus my mind on something. I just picked up a new suspense novel, but I’ve kind of reached a stopping point. Anyway, lonely is a word for it. My thing is that I don’t feel like I can share my general bleak outlook with people around me, when I’m dark like I am right now I just tell them I’m not feeling well. They know what I mean. The pain for me throws into sharp relief how little empathy I feel from others. Usually I’m a loner, I support the people around me but they hardly support me.
correction, the support me if I ask them in a certain way. At this point I’m tired of trying to make them understand.
Sometimes I can go a whole day without talking to someone. I’m not sure if it’s because of social anxiety or depression. But it’s a lose lose situation. I either feel lonely if I don’t, or have panic attacks if I do.
P.s. If you or anyone else is feeling lonely too, my email is devinbelver@yahoo.com if you want someone to talk to