Can I wake up please?

Is that reality?
i look at the old me ,4 or 5 years ago,i was quite happy
then in 2012
my parents love, me i have friends,not too much but they are loyal and i love them
my weight is appropriate ,when am sad i can describe my feelings,people listen to me
whenever i shut my rooms door,dad follows me ,tries to make me happy as he can
on my birthdays i get gifts from my parents,relatives and friends
mother is my best friend ,i tell her everything about me
my house is a sweet home
………….
oh god ,what happened?where had all these days gone?
have my parents died?who are those?are they my parents?
where had all my “loyal” friends gone ?
is that happening?why cant i even describe my feelings?where had all those who care for me gone?..those who were always there for me ?where had they gone?
where had my sweet life gone? is that a nightmare?
if it is,can i wake up please?
wait i remembered something very important,why do you care?why will you help me?your only strangers ,idk but,if i were you i would never care to help a stranger,parents and friends they never cared to help me ,so why will you do?
am sorry but actually this post ,and all of my posts are only written just because i need to tell people about my feelings no matter if they are such a mess