My name is Scott, I’m a 21 year old male with anorexia, autism and depression.
I’m not really bothered in revealing my name as I’m going to be dead anyway.
I am very upset and bored with life and and I have decided to pull the plug. I don’t really have much of a future ahead of me as I am autistic so most employers will most likely not accept me. I have been anorexic since I was about 8 years old and it’s absolutely debilitating, I’m constantly out of energy.
I work 5 days a week as a volunteer worker and I don’t think I will be capable of much more than that. It’s not that most autistic people cannot get paid work, it’s that most employers won’t take them on which is disgusting.
What got me depressed the most was when I found out about the new world order and how humanity will never wake up to it.
I’m not some silly child with liveable problems, I’m a mentally ill autistic man who has experienced serious fucked up shit.
I am going to beachy head on holiday on May 27th this year, it’s a very infamous suicide spot I recently heard about and I will plan on taking my life then. I have made my decision. Satan rules earth and I want to escape from his realm. I am certain I’m going to a nice place when I die as I am very tight with Jesus Christ.
To the suicide project team, I greatly appreciate and admire your work. I think it’s wonderful you have saved people here even if you didn’t save me.
To my friends and family I hope you end up in a nice place when you die too.
-Scott
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What would you like to change in your life to be at peace?
I am pretty much already at peace deep down, I just can’t wait until judgement day. I want out of satan’s realm.
dont fucking kill your self that what satan wants.
find the inner rage and develop it into a new person, dont do anything stupid, ok?
the end is coming you should find out who you can become.
if you ever need anything just message me and i will listen
Thank you for commenting. I am certain the end is coming soon, probably in the next 20 years but I feel no motivation to wait that long. I do know abbadon is in the flesh cuz as I say, the end is coming and I’m sure he won’t want to miss it.
As for lucifer, I’m sure he’s absolutely pissed that I’m going to heaven and not to Tartarus when I die. If anything he wants me to continue living on earth as this place is ruled by him. Things are terrible now and they will get a lot worse.
In case you don’t know who abbadon is, he is the gatekeeper of hell, not lucifer, they are both totally separate beings.
I really like how you think, friend. I’ll see you in heaven soon enough!
I’ve considered Beachy Head myself but I’m terrified of heights and might not be able to go through with it. I considered plying myself with alcohol but in the time that takes I’d probably be approached and stopped by the suicide prevention officers who regularly patrol the cliffs.