Hello… I don’t know at all where to start. I don’t know anything. Just want to be out of this world. Well… I really just want to be someone I am not. I want to be loved. I want to have friends. I want to have my own identity, my own life. I want people to see me, not what they can get from me. I am tired of.. well, everything. I feel like screaming, but am in a place where I can’t..
I am their finance, I am their shoulder to cry on. I am..
Nothing important. I am just here. It’s okay to laugh at me. I am a laughing stock. I am ridiculously alive.. It has to be so, right? Please, someone give me a reason to live.
I have never been this close to suicide before and I am trying so hard to hang in here, guys.
Please, someone give me a reason..
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You gave yourself a reason to stay… by looking for a reason. Find something you like doing, anything that makes you feel you’re making an impact. What do YOU want to be doing?
You can make new friends who are more or less on the same page (or at least the same book) if you find activities you enjoy, you can join groups or recreational classesif you want to be more social.
My reason is my desire for a decent future.. That’s why i stick around.. But of course, that desire can turn into desperation.. and then to hopelessness. (is that a word?) Either way, usually people have a person which they long to stay for. Or maybe music or a hobby. Do you care to tell us more about yourself?
My email is devinbelver@yahoo.com by the way if you ever would like to talk. I’m always here to listen and to help. And of course, if you would like a friend.