The basic reasons I’m alive are obligation and guilt – obligation to my jobs, to be a constant for family and friends, guilt I will look pathetic, guilt to leave others in pain, guilt from looking ungrateful, guilt for feeling like a burden; I feel guilt that I’m just broken internally or something. I don’t have a good reason to not want to live, I’m not hated, I have friends, my family is good, I have money, I’m not ugly, I’m young, I’m blessed and I feel so horrible to be feeling anything other than simply extremely grateful (although don’t get me wrong I am eternally grateful). Yet for no good reason other than maybe I’m too sensitive for this world I am just so sad it’s nearly debilitating whenever I find myself alone with my thoughts.
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It’s ok to feel like this. You are feeling these things, and that indicates that you have reasons to feel like this. It’s simply impossible that you’re experiencing this without a cause. Have you ever went for a brain scan, and all the other tests, to check out your brain’s chemical balance? Maybe also just think about why you’re sensitive to the things you are. Also, maybe think about those sad thoughts. I know it’s uncomfortable, but really dissect them. Think about the why and what.
Dude chemical imbalances are not real, they’re something pharmaceutical companies made up for marketing purposes.
And even if they were real, they wouldn’t show up in brain scans, which either work a bit like x-rays, or measure blood flow or electrical activity.
That being said, brain scans might still reveal useful info if you struggle with mental problems.
Or rather: chemical imbalances are real, but are created, not alleviated, by the drugs.
Ah! Sarcasm at its FINEST! You, sir, are fit to be my jester!
I think over sensitivity is a huge issue for lots of us.
This world is a violent, chaotic place. Personally, I’d rather sit at the coast and watch the ocean until the day I die than live and function in the rat race, but I need my cheese. . .
That guilt you feel for being broken internally – why? Because society says you should be happy and joyous and buying nice toys and owning everything, and if you’re not, you’re broken?
It’s tough to live with that guilt. It’s crippling, and it’s not abnormal or a sign that you’re broken. It’s a symptom of the affliction of humanity, of your specific sensitivity.
Wouldn’t it be nice to hit a “Mute All Thoughts” button when you’re alone?
Trust me I’m doing plenty of tests. I have lots of health issues, although it’s been for about 5 years now and still no diagnosis. Still lucky because I’m not disabled or dying. I’ve had an MRI and I’m going to do another layer. I just did an EKG and have an EEG and EMG later this week so maybe I’ll get answers who knows! Thank you
Sorry that reply at the bottom is for sad potato
Yeah I don’t know what’s wrong if chemical imbalances are a thing or if it’s a brain issue who knows!