I hate myself from who I am. Tho I’m nothing special, just someone miserable and pathetic who just wants to die. Being beaten a lot by your parents, emotionally manipulated and abused by them. Even verbally abused. It’s kinda sad you can’t escape from them, because they still keep on you on their loose. I thought dating him would change but it makes me more worse by the way he treats me. Of course in 2 weeks he said he loves just 3 times. He is a transgender guy. It’s kinda sad but kinda feel betrayed and used. Being taken for granted too. Well who knows, no one is gonna share my story because I’m nothing special at all I guess.